You can change yourself to fulfill the expectations of the one you love. Or you can stay just as you are, and let them accept you that way. The choice you make, ultimately decides the future of your existence in your future life.
You can murder your identity and then spend the rest of your life trying to find it again. Or you can nurture a healthy relationship where you and your identity are both understood and well respected.
It’s ultimately your own choice. Make it wisely.
I don’t want to wear this mask anymore.
I don’t want to try to become who em not.
I don’t want to act like i don’t care about anyone.
I don’t want to show that em not affected by what my loved ones do.
I don’t want to be mean,
I don’t want to be rude or harsh or ruthless.
I don’t want to become feelingless or emotionless.
I want to give love and be loved.
I want to be calm and patient.
I want to be known for my softness and wisdom and tolerance.
I want to become who i was once again but with a little modification.
I want to be more jolly, more self confident; More composed n charming.
I want to be the limelight, the loved one but also the wise one.
I want to learn again when to speak, when to keep your mouth shut and how to speak without hurting someone!
I want to be all nice and be myself as well.
And I want to be all this, without compromising at any time with my self respect and self esteem.
I want to learn how to tolerate others words again without flashing back.
I want to learn to start keeping my thoughts to myself again.
I want this all.
And I WILL become the one that is this all.
All I need is a little determination and understanding… as well as lot of love.