Oh what she was..

Oh what she was.. a carefree girl
So happily running around
Oh where she went…all her happiness
How did she stumble down??
Like a gust of wind..it flew away
Oh that laughter…her sweet sound!
Oh what she was.. a carefree girl
So happily running around

A pale li’l body.. a lifeless doll
Oh dreams… that shattered down
There she was…her broken heart
No hope, no light she found
Stagnant like mud water creeping
Oh darkness..that canopy around
Oh what she was…a carefree girl
So happy again never found!!

I don’t want to….

I don’t want to wear this mask anymore.

I don’t want to try to become who em not.

I don’t want to act like i don’t care about anyone.

I don’t want to show that em not affected by what my loved ones do.

I don’t want to be mean,

I don’t want to be rude or harsh or ruthless.

I don’t want to become feelingless or emotionless.

I want to give love and be loved.

I want to be calm and patient.

I want to be known for my softness and wisdom and tolerance.

I want to become who i was once again but with a little modification.

I want to be more jolly, more self confident; More composed n charming.

I want to be the limelight, the loved one but also the wise one.

I want to learn again when to speak, when to keep your mouth shut and how to speak without hurting someone!

I want to be all nice and be myself as well.

And I want to be all this, without compromising at any time with my self respect and self esteem.

I want to learn how to tolerate others words again without flashing back.

I want to learn to start keeping my thoughts to myself again.

I want this all.

And I WILL become the one that is this all.

All I need is a little determination and understanding… as well as lot of love.

I don’t want to wear this mask anymore.
I don’t want to try to become who em not.
I don’t want to act like i don’t care about anyone.
I don’t want to show that em not affected by what my loved ones do.
I don’t want to be mean,
I don’t want to be rude or harsh or ruthless.
I don’t want to become feelingless or emotionless.

I want to give love and be loved.
I want to be calm and patient.
I want to be known for my softness and wisdom and tolerance.
I want to become who i was once again but with a little modification.
I want to be more jolly, more self confident; More composed n charming.
I want to be the limelight, the loved one but also the wise one.
I want to learn again when to speak, when to keep your mouth shut and how to speak without hurting someone!
I want to be all nice and be myself as well.
And I want to be all this, without compromising at any time with my self respect and self esteem.
I want to learn how to tolerate others words again without flashing back.
I want to learn to start keeping my thoughts to myself again.
I want this all.
And I WILL become the one that is this all.
All I need is a little determination and understanding… as well as lot of love.

…till i can fall in love again!

I tried to attach so many names with mine
but this heart was always attached to thine!

The desire to be loved will never go..
But now there’s one thing that i know!
I will never look for your replacement in my life!

No, i dont really want you back anymore
But there is this thing that i know for sure
I’ll never break a heart the way you broke mine!
I will never give anyone a false sign!

The way I loved you,
I know I’ll never the same…
But still I will wait patiently till i can fall in love again!!!!