It’s amazing how she spent every moment of every day and night thinking about him and waiting for him. She forgot everything else except him. Her studies, food, friends, family, everything. She even forgot herself.
She craved for his sight all through the day, and when he stood in front of her, she ignored him. She kept a safe distance, and satisfied herself by stealing glances at him secretly. He was her cute little secret and she was totally happy with it.
But, secrets don’t live a very long life.
Just when she was convinced she will never meet him again, he began returning her glances. He smiled at her more often. Whenever she was out with her friends, he was always coincidentally around. He kept finding ways of trying to strike a conversation with her. But, she was satisfied with the distant bond they shared. Slowly she started making up her mind to talk to him but by then, he was disheartened. He turned his attention to others. She kept waiting for his signs but never found them again.
She secluded herself. She spent days and nights in his thoughts, waiting for him & crying over his absence. These cries once passed through the ears of her friend and her dream world shattered.
Her li’l secret was out.
The friend immediately approached him about her deteriorating condition. About her friend’s obsession of him, and he out-rightly rejected the idea of ever falling in love with her. He rejected even having thought about her ever.
Her world shattered around her and she could do nothing but watch helplessly. She was labelled as a dreamer and her love story… just a dream!
There were giggles accompanied by soft laughter that lighted up the atmosphere. His cheeks were red. He was looking like a newly-wed bride, who blushes like a budding-pink rose! Everybody kept teasing him by the name of a nonexistent girl…and he kept pleading innocent as if he was being accused of a robbery or a murder!
He was a sweet-natured guy.. and teasing him like that was always so much fun! Everyone of us knew that the girl we were teasing her about never existed..but we continued doing it anyways. Finally, he could not control his laughter at the stories they made about him and his girl… and coupled his hands together like a bowl and hid his face! His manly hands contrasted his rose-pink cheeks.
From under his hidden face, he moved his eyeballs slowly and stole a look at the girl sitting across the table! She immediately spotted him looking… and he at once rolled away his eyes like they never ever stole a look at her. She felt awkward but slurred away that thought anyway.
The teasing session continued for a while after they forcefully moved his hands away from his face. Who says only girls are shy creatures?! LOL.
A few minutes later, she spotted his eyes roll to-and-fro again! A flash of her recent past floated across her eyes, and she memorized how she herself was at his place sometime back…rolling her eyes at her crush every few minutes.
The sweetness around her turned into bitterness in a second. She knew the outcome of this acquaintance will not be good ultimately! So, she quietly withdrew from the place and nobody except him noticed. His cheeks were pink no more, they were rather pale now. He was a sweet guy… but she didn’t want another bitter episode in her life anyway!
As she walked through the streets of the city, a familiar nostalgic feeling took over her. She felt attached to every single thing there. The corners, the trees, the roads…everything! She had memories attached with all of them.
Glimpses from the past began rolling in front of her eyes. Those teasing titter-bitter talks, those big, naughty grins, those loud laughters, those nonsense treats called parties…everything flashed before her like a video! Those were some beautiful times of her life! Her life was like hell now… how she wished those times could be back!
But deep inside, she knew… Her life will never be the same again!
There were thunderbolts of pain striking every muscle of her body. She couldn’t even budge. Just then, a lady in light, stern blue entered her room, and rested a lifeless little doll beside her. Just as she felt a warm breath on her arm, a feeling of calmness swept over her. The pain magically disappeared. She slowly pulled her heavy limbs upwards and tried to sit up. It was awfully difficult. But she managed doing it anyway. Slowly and carefully, she lifted up the li’l doll in her arms. It felt like an act of uttermost responsibility.A little angel sleeping in her arms..what could be a better blessing for her! As she moved her forefinger through the baby’s little fingers.. the li’l tigthened her grip. As if she recognized her for ages, as if she knew she was her mother! The li’l princess slept peacefully, while the queen hugged and kissed her lovingly.
Love and selflessness, joy and yet pain, peace and yet anxiety, satisfaction and yet longingness…tears and yet smiles…there was too much in that one moment! Too many mixed emotions .. yet only one beautiful name..MOTHERHOOD.