I don’t want to wear this mask anymore.
I don’t want to try to become who I am not.
I don’t want to act like i don’t care about anyone.
I don’t want to show that I am not affected by what my loved ones do.
I don’t want to be mean,
I don’t want to be rude or harsh or ruthless.
I don’t want to become feelingless or emotionless.
I want to give love and be loved.
I want to be calm and patient.
I want to be known for my softness and wisdom and tolerance.
I want to become who i was once again but with a little modification.
I want to be more jolly, more self confident; More composed n charming.
I want to be the limelight, the loved one but also the wise one.
I want to learn again when to speak, when to keep your mouth shut and how to speak without hurting someone!
I want to be all nice and be myself as well.
And I want to be all this, without compromising at any time with my self respect and self esteem.
I want to learn how to tolerate others words again without flashing back.
I want to learn to start keeping my thoughts to myself again.
I want this all.
And I WILL become the one that is this all.
All I need is a little determination and understanding… as well as lot of love.